Home Alone

Why water?
Because water makes me feel comfortable, relax and well...you'll find many reasons if you wish.. :D

This week I am home alone. I have plenty of time to think and re-think about my existence. This interview that I will go through in Thursday have made me review my past performance and rethink of my goal (just in case they'll ask these kinds of questions..).

Sunday. I tried to breakdown what I've been through in my previous job, what my role was, what I have achieved, just for the sake to answer the question, "what is your transferrable skills?". Another questions pop up after I read some articles, "what have you done creativily?","have you ever persuaded person?". God... The conclusion is I think I have done only few things in my previous time. What have I done?

Monday. I started my day browsing the internet, compiled all the possible alternatives to spend my time while I'm here in US. I founded that I can have language courses or join a club or take a master degree in Marketing Research or take a degree on Culinary arts... Ahaaa.. problem solved? I don't think so... I have to pay tuition for those activities.. I don't think I will be ready yet to get commited to pay for things right now (God... education is expensive in US!). Well..at least I've figured out what I can do...while happily watching movies on the TV.

Tuesday. I got confused. My brain becames unstructured once more. What am I doing? Why am I doing this? What is my goal? I asked these questions to myself after have talked to my friends. I browse the internet once again... see and read other people's blog.. and try to synthesize what I've been thinking. I conclude that I only need to have friends to talk to and some money to support my life. Materialistic? You may say that...but I am the type of person who want to be financially independent. Hmmm.
Anyway.. this afternoon I read a friend's blog and read it in the article, " just do what you like!". Man... that shook me in the head. I am too busy to think of how I could be financially independent so I sometimes disregard my interest. Do you find it unclear? well...here is an example: I think that I need to take a culinary art study, so I can open my own business when I get back to Indonesia, so I can be financially independent. What the heck? I don't think I have the passion to do that...
Well I guess.. my friend's advice is more rellevant right now,"Follow your passion, Mira.. If you don't know yet..just try many things." (thanks, Maya!).
I have spent many days thinking...but I don't know what I am going to do next. Do I regret it? Absolutely not. I feel blessed because I have time to think of my life. At least I know where I am right now.
Some people might think this is weird.."You still don't know what you're going to do at this age, Mira?". Well.. to be honest: YES. However I know my values: I want to be financially independent and I want to give benefit to as many people as possible.
At the meantime... I'll let my life to flow like water.

P.S. After I have reviewed this article once more, I realized that my principle to let life flow like water is perhaps the main reason why I did only few things in my previous life.. :) Hmmm... but I love my life anyway... :D